Why in the World Am I Still Single?

It almost feels like every day that I either go to bed or wake up in the morning and ask a simple question, “Why am I still single?” 
 
I almost feel like countering all of the stuff in local news lately with this hashtag, #MyLoveLifeMatters.
 
Forget what is happening in the Presidential race.  Forget what is happening in Great Britain.  Forget about horrible water for the Rio Olympics.  We have something more serious to talk about…I AM STILL SINGLE!!!!
 
Why haven’t there been hearings on Capitol Hill about this?  Why isn’t this leading the nightly news?  Why hasn’t CNN done a one hour documentary about it produced by Tom Hanks (Nice job on the 80’s documentary series btw)?
 
Back in the 90’s I dated someone, they were of the opposite sex.  Later, I realized that the opposite sex wasn’t the right one for me and that took some time to understand myself about all of that part of my life.
 
I am on just about every single dating site and app that is available at a reasonable price.  I mean c’mon match.com, I am not spending $35 a month to find that someone.  If I was going to spend that per month, the government better let me use it as a tax write off.
 
Are you thinking that I am picky about who I want to date? Uhh…duh…aren’t you as well?  Did you marry someone because you said, oh I guess you will do, let’s go to Vegas? 
 
Could you really see me on a gay version of the Bachelor?  Blake would you accept this cosmo?  The drama would be me looking at someone and going “Yeah right.”
 
Oh I have found some really nice guys, felt like we click and your gut is like…this could be the one.  Sadly, he lives more than 200 miles away or another continent.  But they think chatting on Skype is the same as a real date.
 
How about those who say the right words to you and then ask if you can help them buy an airline ticket because they are stuck in Africa on a diamond buying trip and their mom is not doing well at their home in Boca Raton, Florida.  But, as soon as things settle, he is your life partner.
 
I know now many are you are reading this and going, you are single because your negative attitude towards dating.  No, it’s not that.  Sadly, many others can share the same stories.
 
The dating scene has honestly been pretty much non-existent for me.  My personal life has been a roller coaster on finding out that I really am and my pursuit of a dream career has come before settling down with someone.
 
My priorities have put dating further down the list and I am trying to put that higher on the list.
 
I still think back to what my dad said to me when I came out to him.  He told me that he didn’t want me to be alone, and that I have a life worth sharing with someone.  I totally agree with him.
 
Many family and friends can give me great letter of references to any potential partners.  They will tell you that I have a heart and I care way to damn much about things. 
 
My heart is in my job at the insurance agency and my passion continues writing in auto racing.  Nothing gives me more pride knowing that stories I have written has helped drivers, teams, tracks and series become successful. 
 
Sadly, passion doesn’t pay the bills and that continues to be a struggle for me today.  Wish it did, because I feel that I could be a real asset.  (Maybe I should start a GoFundMe page..LOL)
 
There is a love I want to share with someone.   I have always felt that my gut will tell me who the right one is for me.  Sadly, when my gut told me that, it wasn’t mutual on the other side.
 
So my quest continues to this day.  It’s almost like one of the top items on my bucket list. 
 
But, it won’t stop who I am or will be in the future.  This quest is a journey with a big reward in the end.  Hopefully, it will be a life fulfilling reward with someone.
 
It would be nice to meet someone who knows the meaning of trust, honesty, communication and commitment to make a relationship successful for both of us…together. 
 
It would also be nice to get the hug every day that melts the stress away. 
 
It would be nice to find someone I am proud to introduce to my family and friends.
 
And, someone with a better credit score than me. LOL
 
I know I am not alone in this world when it comes to dating issues.  But, it’s on my mind.
 
Worse case…I can get a dog.  :-)